Life Update: I’m changing
In case you missed my stories last week, I explained some heavy thoughts that have been on my mind lately. I have been in a mental and creative rut. I was feeling discouraged and confused. What is my purpose here? What am I bringing to the table to help others. Am I bringing significance or am I turning into a social media zombie. I don’t just want to be another name shoving clothes in your face, telling you your life will change if you buy what I bought. It won’t. Mine didn’t. This is not me. It is not what I want out of my life. Not how I choose to use this platform.
I figured the best way to rid myself of this slump was to take a break. To give my mind a rest from the scrolling, from the ads, from the feeling of wanting more.
I read something the other day that really resonated with me (actually it more like B** slapped me across the face). “The reason why anyone wants anything is because of the way they think it will make them feel”, Unknown. Holy cow! Does that not just grip you inside? We don’t want a new handbag for any other reason other than how it will make us feel, or rather how we think it will make us feel. There are times when I would see influencers wearing a certain item or using a specific brand and I would think to myself, “wow, I need that to make it big”. How f’ed up is that! Seriously! I’m basing spending my hard earned money, on how I think certain items will accelerate me on Instagram… It’s sad. I’d like to say I’m the only one but I bet I’m not. I feel like it has been imbedded into society, that we should have as many tangible items as we can. Stock that big house full of crap we probably won’t ever use because that’s what we should do. Okay, I’m going to reign myself in before I go too far off topic.
The point is, I was being bogged down with my blog. It didn’t bring me joy anymore. I was finding myself blocked up and not creating any content I felt was actually worth posting. If you saw my draft page, I have loads of posts that are stopped mid-sentence because I just lost my drive to write it. Actually funny story, my cousin and I will facetime some nights while we both work on our blogs. I was writing a post about how I organized my Tupperware and I was struggling. I asked him what he thought and his face said it all. We had a good laugh and then I moved on to another post. I created this blog as my outlet, my chance to use my creativity, a place to build a community of people who support each other. It’s supposed to be fun and real!!
So, that’s what I’m going to do! I’m going to choose to take the stress out of it and enjoy my damn life!
If I feel like the dinner I manifested out of the scraps of the fridge was a success, I’ll share it! If I have a funny story about a life fail, I’ll share it. It might be a little random and scattered brained but I’m really feeling inspired again! I’m going to live my life like the precious gift it is, and share my journey along the way when I feel fit.
I hope I kept this short and sweet for you guys and didn’t loose anyone but I just wanted to end this post with a thought. If tomorrow was your last day here, would you be satisfied with who you are and how you lived you life? If not, don’t wait to make the change you need to be the best you can be, for yourself. Find what makes you happy and do that. To hell with the rest of the world. I’m pretty sure I’m just going to adopt the moto “You do you Boo”.